hey there everyone...it's been a long while since i've written.  How is everyone doing? good, aye?
Just got back from the U.P. (upper peninsula of MI). It was fun...dude, i caught 20 fish over two days!! :)  plus i found a snake and lots of toads, got attacked by a dog, and lots of bugs.

hey everyone...appears this place is still rather active.  All these peoples coming on here to talk! how yall doing? give me some comments...I like this place now.

who likes converse??? WOO GO CONVERSE!

Newsboys tonight at 7pm on the internet radio!!
Can't wait to hear them!  Hope dad will let me call on his cell to request a song!
Going to Guyana in June...just finished my prayer letter.  Whoever reads this, please send me your address so I can mail you my prayer letter...and i mean through snail mail.
And...I got a cold...cuz I keep sneezing...
and I miss Krissy still...cuz she's been gone...or offline I mean.
AND...hahaha...I got a secret message, which no one but me can decode.

J knud lhbgzdk!!

tomorrow is thanksgiving.
Let me see...our first thanksgiving is with mom's side of the family at my uncle's house...then our next thanksgiving is with my dad's side of the family at our house.  Woo, that means we get to clean on Friday, for Saturday.
I'm really hungry...I'm praying we have left over mashed potatoes afterwards....if Jc doesn't eat them all first.
Anyhow, that's all.
Um, whoever reads this, PLEASE pray for Krissy and her family.  She's having a rough time right now and really needs the prayer! thanks.

I found out today that Krissy can come to convention!  I asked Pearl and Randy and they told me she could go, she just needs to register and pay.  It will for sure be $250 OR UNDER! So that's a good prospect right there!  Jc quit the team...sad to say, but he might still come if he doesn't have to work.  I'm just so happy it's possible! I'm gonna start saving money now so in case she needs a little extra when the time comes.
Dad made this new rule out of frustration.  Each person in the family has $10 for the week for their food...that means their lunch and snacks.  And mom will buy dinner foods.  So we have to make a list and she buys it.  Well...I'm pretty good at managing with not much.  So I think I'm gonna get like a bulk packacge of doritos, and then save up as much of that $10 as I can, and I figured out if I start saving now, I'll have exactly $250 by the time the money is due.  So I can save up for that and still eat a little.  Anyhow I've been stock piling for a while now...so I got a good suply of doritos to last me.  Plus Jc almost always has left over soup that he gives me.

Well, first off, everyone already knows this already, and I feel redundant posting it AGAIN, but I hate to leave my blog un-updated.
I got Carpel Tunnel...so I got my hand in a wrap right now...and dealing with that, and the lack of usage there.
Um...I got AIM, so that's why I'm not here much anymore.  If you see this, and I somehow over looked you...or missed you, or my email didn't make it to you, I do...so email, pm, or call me for the sn.
Also...the other day, I exploded at my mom.  For ever she's been favoring my brothers over me.  She's not very nice to me, and she really ignores me alot.
She was mad at me about something...something small.  I mean, I had disconnected b/c JC was screaming at me to disconnect.  THen Micah came screaming saying I'm a jerk for disconnecting without telling him.  I told him I didn't want to, but JC made me.
Instead of yelling at JC, mom comes to me and she's all yelling about how mean I am to Micah and stuff.  So then she reconnects for bratty Micah.  Then JC disconnects AGAIN to call Vince AGAIN, for the 4th time that day.
Micah runs up the stairs and yells "GENNI, I HATE YOU...WHY'D YOU DISCONNECT AGAIN??"  and I was sitting in the kitchen and i was like "It was JC Micah, NOT me" and mom was like "It's okay...I'll reconnect" and she didn't say ANYTHING to JC.
Gah, so then she's like "and you don't gotta yell Genni" and i just said not kinda loud, b/c I was already pissed off.
So then I go, "Mom, gah, why do you hate me so much? Jeesh, it's not like it was my fault this time, you always get sooo mad at me for stupid stuff, but when the boys do it you couldn't give a rip!" and mom was like "That's not true" and I was like "No, it is...you hate me.  All you ever do it tell me how dumb I am, and how much I suck.  I can never meet up to your expectations...and I'm sick of trying.  It's not even worth, you'll still hate me.  Even if I was perfect you'd hate me!"  and she just stood there.
So I just went on.  I gave her tons of examples about how she favors the boys, and I just kept it coming...all this stuff I've kept bottled up, even just to myself...even stuff I never wrote in my journal, or told my best freind about.  I just let it all out.
I mean, I was sick of trying to please her, it's no use  b/c she's never happy with me anyhow.

today.  Mom and dad didn't remember right off.  Micah had a football game, it was his last one.  So we went.  It was POURING the whole time.  I was wearing jeans and a black t-shirt, so I put on Jc's thin jacket coat thingy.  Anyhow, so we stood there for like 2 hours watching his game! It was so awsome, they won 40 to 6.  They went undefeated this year, which is really great, since last year they only won one game, they've improved alot.
But I was actually really enjoying myself.  My jeans were completely soaked, through and through.  The rain went right through Jc's jacket, so I basically was soaked from top to bottom...the water even soaked through my beany hat.
But it was fun.  I had a great day.  Then we got home and I listened to Toby's cd and then to Shine the Hits.  Then I came downstairs to get online, and mom was making burgers.  She was just all talking and I was standing there, waiting for the food.  And she was talking about how big Micah is since last year, and when he was 13 he was puney and then she was like, "You're about right for your age...only just a little small I think...I mean most 15 year olds..." then she stopped, and was like "Holy crap, it's your birthday!!" only she said an alternative word for crap.  Then she went and told dad.  Then he came up to get his burger...and I was dreading it.  I was gonna quick leave, b/c I KNEW he'd say it.  But I couldn't escpase fast enough, he said "sooo, sweet sixteen...and never been kissed!" then mom was like "Have you ever been kissed?"  gah, I wanted to curl up and die right then.  Luckily, I just said "Why would I tell you?" and then Micah was like "She prolly hasn't..." and I was like "You'll never know, now will you Micuck?" (I call him that sometimes) and then dad just laughed and left.  So I didn't get too humiliated.
Then mom asked me if I wanted something...cheap.  I said I'd think about it.  What should I ask for? I already kinda tried asking for a place ticket to NC, and that idea was shot down before it even got all the way out of my mouth.
But, all in all the day went good.  I think I'm glad they remembered, but didn't do anything dumb, like sing or anything.  Not that I don't like singing...but it's ackward just standing there while they sing happy brithday.
Anyhow, so I feel pretty good.  No older, but good.
I'm gonna mail Peter on Monday...send him some lyrics, and tell him some stuff.  Look forward to writing the letter.

Guys, pray for poor Josh, he isn't feeling so great lately, and he needs prayer!!!
I love you Josh!

Haha, mom and dad were talking about having another baby.  I hope they do...that would be so cool! Ha, and I'd only have to deal directly with it up till it was 2 or 3 and then I'm outa here!
I hope we do...
anyhow, I gotta babysit in a while so I better go.

it's been a long been a long long time since someone's shown love to me, yeah, been a long been a long long time since someone's shown love for meeeee!
It's all about love, I want you to know, sweet are the sounds, can you hear them baby? I'll take you there, this love will never let you gooo, woah!
Sweet words of love, sweet words of love, sweet words of...love.  wooooaaahhh!


take these peices thrown away, put them together from night and day.  Washed by the son, dried by the rain. To be my father in fatherless days.  Take these peices thrown away, put them together from night and day.  Washed by the son, dried by the rain. To be my father in fatherless days.


it's difficult to say goodbye after only one life
the rain will fall down replenishing all of our broken dreams
and this burning tree that's withering will bloom again
would you believe
goodbye, goodbye
walk away it's time to say goodbye
goodbye, goodbye
walk away it's hard to say goodbye
now all that's left , pictures on the walls
memories and stories that are told
the more often told the bigger they get
create a legacy lest we forget
goodbye, goodbye
walk away it's time to say goodbye
no longer can i hold onto this defeated change in heart, i swear
it's time to sing "fare thee well" to life as we know it
my voice it will be, you know i will be, yes it will be still
something woke me up in the midst of dream and fantasy
halfway there but He always fills my cup
and He lifts me up oh how He lifts me up
goodbye, goodbye
walk away it's time to say goodbye
i never took the time to stop and realize that death takes many forms
even while alive


think i'll wait for the tide
seems it's all i can do right now
there must be a reason
i've run aground
i'll wait for the waves
to come
by the moon and the tide
like a man and his bride
i will wait
on you, Lord
and we will run so far from here
to your.........safety
think i'll lie in the sun for awhile
maybe inside out
i've been leaving messages for you
i'm sure it will all work out
and i know the waves
will come
by the moon and the tide
like a man and his bride
i will wait
on you Lord
and we will run so far from here
to your.........safety in the storm
there is courage for the simple man
to the holders of secrets and scars
learning to stand with reaching arms
we'll wait till the very last
no matter what will be
you're always good
always good
to me

okay, so every night I pray and then read like two chapters of the Bible, right.  So last night I was laying on my bed praying...with my light on.  And my mom comes up and she's like "What are you doing? I told you to go to bed!" and it was 11pm at the time.  And I was like "I'm praying, then I'm gonna read my Bible." and she was like "You're a little liar, you're supposed to be in bed.  Go to bed, you can do all that stuff tomorrow when you wake up!"  and she was all yelling and she left.  Well, I have done these things since last January, and I don't want to break my good run.  But I didn't want to disobey mom...or God.  So I finished praying, and laid there in bed till 12:01, then I "woke" up and it was the next day and all, and I cracked my door and read my Bible by the hall light.  Then I went to bed.  But grr it frustrated me.

Then a couple minutes ago my mom calls me down to the den, and i go.  She and dad are checking my geometry home work.  Dad says, "You've been cheating, these answers are all right, and exactly like the teachers manual. Even this spelling error, you wrote 'iff' and so did the book."  Gah, so I had to show them that I was mostly just writing theorem and postulates so those will be word for word anyhow, and 'iff' mean "if and only if" grr...I hate being blamed for stuff.

Guys, pray for Krissy.  She's having a really rough time and her family is just making it really hard on the poor girl!